you hadn't seen your father in such a long time 你有没有见过你的父亲在这么长的时间

he died in the arms of his lover how dare he 他在爱人的怀里死去他怎么敢

your mother never left the house 你的母亲从来没有离开过家

she never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her 她从未结婚别人对你自己把它给她安慰

   

you reminded her so much of your father 你让她想起了这么多你的父亲

so you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive 所以你被放逐，你想知道为什么你是如此的过敏反应

and why you can't trust anyone but us 为什么你不能相信任何人，但我们

but then how can I begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water 但我怎么能开始原谅她这么多年桥底用脏水

she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me 她是愚蠢和自私，懦弱，如果你问我

   

I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years 我不知道从哪里开始在我所有的50多年

I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring 我一直在默默的痛苦和适应延续和持久

who are you younger generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems 谁是你的下一代，告诉我，我有尚未解决的问题

not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour 这种折磨人的劳动果实的例子并不多

   

how can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn 你怎么能随便扔的话周围像悲伤，医治和哀悼

I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were 我感觉很好，我们可能还没有出生的清醒，你是

it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways 这是非常困难的那些日子里，我们曾纸张路线上山左右逢源

we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood 我们从学校到工作到妻子父母瞬间

   

I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch 我走进他的办公室，我觉得很自觉的在沙发上

he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis I don't know 他在对面坐了下来，从我他写下他的假设，我不知道

i've got a loving supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get 我有一个爱的贤内助，谁不知道她应该如何获得参与

you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit? 你说他插嘴了他刚刚打电话给我在我的屎？

   

just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye 就在几天前，我可爱的女儿我开车过去203我走在我的脑海里的楼梯

I remember how they would creak loudly 我记得他们会如何咯吱一声

she was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo 她才反应小酌一杯，他只响应由照片

I was only trying to be the best big brother I could 我只是想成为最好的大哥我可以

   

i've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide 我已经走了，有时糊涂，有时准备破解敞开

sometimes indignant sometimes raw 时而愤怒时而生

can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes 你可以想象我付给他有时一个小时75元

it feels like highway robbery 感觉就像拦路抢劫

and sometimes it's peanuts 有时它是花生

I wish it could last a couple more hours 我想它可能会持续几个小时以上

   

so here we both are battling similar demons (not coincidentally) 所以在这里，我们都正在争夺类似恶魔（不是巧合）

you see n getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually you're not relinquishing your majestry 你看Ñ获得超越知道它只是理智上你不放弃你的majestry

you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big 你是聪明人，你很热情，你是勇敢的你是大

and I love you more now than I ever have in my whole life 而我更爱你现在比我以往任何时候都在我的一生