我自己

Frederick Douglass, a slave, explained this phenomenon when he was employed as a Baltimore ship's caulker: I was to be allowed all my time; to make bargains for work; to find my own employment, and to collect my own wages; and in return for this liberty, I was … to pay him (Douglass' master) three dollars at the end of each week, and to board and clothe myself, and buy my own caulking tools.

"冯检道格拉斯，一个奴隶，解释这一现象时，他被聘用为巴尔的摩船舶的caulker ："我是为了让我所有的时间；作出讨价还价的工作；找到自己的就业，并收集我自己的工资；并在返回这个自由，我是……以他的薪水 3美元，上月底，每星期和董事会和衣物自己，购买自己的嵌缝工具。

She asked me whether she was a bad girl and whether it's weird to date an old man his age, she added she might have electra complex, well, no, I see nothing wrong with the age gap, as I think most women want maturity in a man being that we as women mature pretty fast, as well as the stability in men, for myself, I am also looking for an older man who is understanding, patient, mature and can take good care of me, as I hate the feeling of being a baby-sitter to look after my other half, however, the one hasn't showed up yet to the date, I am not that picky, I think just because my circle is so narrow, without any chance to meet people, I hope the day to meet my old man will be coming soon, here the old man doesn't mean those 50 to 70 years old, I would say most people feel comfortable within 10 year range, give or take.

如果三个男人是同一人，那便是女人梦寐以求的幸福，所以虽然本姑娘已经年纪一大把了，偶尔发呆的时候还是会对这个有些幻想有些憧憬有些期盼。虽然自己的幻想或许与现实相抵触，但仍然幻想，虽然自己心里说要求不高，但在这个都是好男人都已经属於别人的社会环境中，自己的要求也算相当高！其实我就希望：他必须经济稳定，房子车子儿子的费用要归他开销。家用如果他能全部负担是最好，不行我也可以承担。我自己赚得钱用於我所有的女性开销，比如化妆品，服饰，旅游，或者跟朋友们出去玩。婚姻不是爱情的坟墓吗？所以他只要能温柔地对待我，偶尔会搞点小浪漫就好。看起来不高，但现实生活中就是没办法实现。再者，重申一下，这绝非拜金行为，而是现实主义者的主张。

I thank the gods for giving me such a brother, who was able by his moral character to rouse me to vigilance over myself, and who, at the same time, pleased me by his respect and affection; that my children have not been stupid nor deformed in body; that I did not make more proficiency in rhetoric, poetry, and the other studies, in which I should perhaps have been completely engaged, if I had seen that I was making progress in them; that I made haste to place those who brought me up in the station of honour, which they seemed to desire, without putting them off with hope of my doing it some time after, because they were then still young; that I knew Apollonius, Rusticus, Maximus; that I received clear and frequent impressions about living according to nature, and what kind of a life that is, so that, so far as depended on the gods, and their gifts, and help, and inspirations, nothing hindered me from forthwith living according to nature, though I still fall short of it through my own fault, and through not observing the admonitions of the gods, and, I may almost say, their direct instructions; that my body has held out so long in such a kind of life; that I never touched either Benedicta or Theodotus, and that, after having fallen into amatory passions, I was cured; and, though I was often out of humour with Rusticus, I never did anything of which I had occasion to repent; that, though it was my mother's fate to die young, she spent the last years of her life with me; that, whenever I wished to help any man in his need, or on any other occasion, I was never told that I had not the means of doing it; and that to myself the same necessity never happened, to receive anything from another; that I have such a wife, so obedient, and so affectionate, and so simple; that I had abundance of good masters for my children; and that remedies have been shown to me by dreams, both others, and against bloodspitting and giddiness...; and that, when I had an inclination to philosophy, I did not fall into the hands of any sophist, and that I did not waste my time on writers of histories, or in the resolution of syllogisms, or occupy myself about the investigation of appearances in the heavens; for all these things require the help of the gods and fortune.

我感谢神明给了我这样一个兄弟，他能以他的道德品格使我警醒，同时又以他的尊重和柔情使我愉悦；感谢神明使我的孩子既不愚笨又不残废，使我并不熟谙修辞、诗歌和别的学问，假如我看到自己在这些方面取得进展的话，本来有可能完全沉醉于其中的；我感谢神明使我迅速地给予了那些培养我的人以他们看来愿意有的荣誉，而没有延宕他们曾对我寄予的愿我以后这样做的期望（因为他们那时还是年轻的）；我感谢神明使我认识了阿珀洛尼厄斯、拉斯蒂克斯、马克西默斯，这使我对按照自然生活，对那种依赖神灵及他们的恩赐、帮助和灵感而过的生活得到了清晰而巩固的印象，没有什么东西阻止我立即按照自然生活，然而我还是因为自己的过错，因为没有注意到神灵的劝告（我几乎还可以说是他们的直接指示）而没有达到它；我的身体置于这样一种生活之外如此之久，我从未达到本尼迪克特或西奥多图斯的高度，但在陷入情欲之后，我还是被治愈了；虽然我常常达不到拉斯蒂克斯的那种气质，但还是没有做过使我悔恨的事情；虽然我母亲不能尽其天年而终，但她最后的年月是与我在一起的；在我希望帮助任何需要帮助的人的时候，或在任何别的场合，我都不感到我缺乏这样做的手段；而对我自己来说却不会有同样的需要：即需要从别人那里得到的东西；我有一个十分温顺、深情和朴实的妻子；我有许多优秀的教师来教育我的孩子；通过梦和其他办法，我发现各种药物来治疗咯血和头昏……当我有一种对哲学的爱好时，我没有落入任何诡辩家之手，没有在历史作品上，或者在三段论法的解决上浪费时间，也没有专注于探究天国的现象；而上面所有这些事情都要求有神灵和命运的帮助。

I thank the gods for giving me such a brother, who was able by his moral character to rouse me to vigilance over myself, and who, at the same time, pleased me by his respect and affection; that my children have not been stupid nor deformed in body; that I did not make more proficiency in rhetoric, poetry, and the other studies, in which I should perhaps have been completely engaged, if I had seen that I was making progress in them; that I made haste to place those who brought me up in the station of honour, which they seemed to desire, without putting them off with hope of my doing it some time after, because they were then still young; that I knew Apollonius, Rusticus, Maximus; that I received clear and frequent impressions about living according to nature, and what kind of a life that is, so that, so far as depended on the gods, and their gifts, and help, and inspirations, nothing hindered me from forthwith living according to nature, though I still fall short of it through my own fault, and through not observing the admonitions of the gods, and, I may almost say, their direct instructions; that my body has held out so long in such a kind of life; that I never touched either Benedicta or Theodotus, and that, after having fallen into amatory passions, I was cured; and, though I was often out of humour with Rusticus, I never did anything of which I had occasion to repent; that, though it was my mother's fate to die young, she spent the last years of her life with me; that, whenever I wished to help any man in his need, or on any other occasion, I was never told that I had not the means of doing it; and that to myself the same necessity never happened, to receive anything from another; that I have such a wife, so obedient, and so affectionate, and so simple; that I had abundance of good masters for my children; and that remedies have been shown to me by dreams, both others, and against bloodspitting and giddiness...; and that, when I had an inclination to philosophy, I did not fall into the hands of any sophist, and that I did not waste my time on writers of histories, or in the resolution of syllogisms, or occupy myself about the investigation of appearances in the heavens; for all these things require the help of the gods and fortune.

感谢诸神，赐我如此优秀的一位兄弟，他能够用自己的德行唤起我的自律，同时又用他的尊重和友情感动我；感谢诸神，我的孩子聪明伶俐，健康活泼；我没有沉迷于修辞、诗歌和其它这类学习，如果我以前发现自己学习这些东西时有所进步，那我可能会全身心投入其中；我毫不迟疑地把荣誉颁给那些抚育我成长的人，他们希望得到这一荣誉，但有人希望我过些时候再这么做，因为他们还年轻，我拒绝了；我还认识了阿波罗尼乌斯、汝斯堤古和马克西米鲁斯。清晰的印象经常出现在我心中，告诉我顺生自然，告诉我那是一种什么样的人生，因此，只要依靠诸神及其赐福，其保佑，其启示，就没有什么能阻止我顺生自然，尽管由于我自身的不足和没有注意诸神的警告（或者差不多可以说是诸神的直接指令），我还不能完全做到；我的身体已经维持了很长一段时间这种生活；我永远不会接触本尼迪克特或狄奥多士，我曾经陷入恋爱的激情，但现在已经摆脱；当我和汝斯堤古在一起时常常发脾气，但我从来没有做过一件让人后悔的事；尽管命中注定我母亲要夭亡，但她生命中的最后一年是和我一起度过的；每当我希望为人排忧解难或做其它事的时候，我从未告诉别人我爱莫能助；对我自己而言我从未陷于一筹莫展之地，需要别人的帮助；我有一位如此贤惠的妻子，温顺、挚爱、单纯；我的孩子有足够的好老师；神通过梦和其他方式向我指明了药物，用来治疗咳血、眼花等等疾病；当我迷上哲学时，没有被任何一个智者所迷惑，我没有浪费时间去撰写历史，思考三段论，或研究天象；因为所有这些需要得到神和命运的帮助。

I thought sometime alone was what we really needed you said this time would hurt more than it helps but I couldn't see that I thought it was the end of a beautiful story and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone and I tried to find out if this one thing is true that I'm nothing without you I know better now and I've had a change of heart I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah And then I met someone and thought she could replace you we got a long just fine we wasted time because she was not you we had a lot of fun though we knew we were faking love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true that I'm nothing without you I know better now and I've had a change of heart I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart who holds my heart I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you, I can only prove the things I say with time, please be mine, I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself I'd rather have hard times to gether, than to have it easy apart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart whoooo.....who holds my heart

开始单独我试图寻找如果这件事是真的我宁愿坏的时候与你一起，好的时候与别人一起我宁愿做你身边的一场风暴，比我自己更加安全和温暖我宁愿共度时艰，而不是把它就这么简单的结束我宁愿谁拥有我的心 whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah 然后我见到某人并认为她可以代替你我们还有相当长一段只是惩罚我们浪费时间，因为她不是你我们有很多的乐趣尽管我们知道我们是伪造爱情是不深刻的印象与我们联系他们都是谎言，所有的谎言所以我在这里事业，我发现这一件事是真的说什么我没有你我知道现在更好和我已经改变了主意我宁愿坏的时候与你一起，好的时候与别人一起我宁愿做你身边的一场风暴，比我自己更加安全和温暖我宁愿共度时艰，而不是把它简单清除我宁愿谁拥有我的心谁拥有我的心我可以不怪你，如果你又离开我，就像我做你，我只能证明我说的东西随着时间的推移，请地雷，我宁愿做你身边的风暴，比安全，温暖了我我宁愿有困难的时候，在一起在外不是很容易我宁愿谁拥有我的心我宁愿坏的时候与你一起，好的时光与别人一起我宁愿做你身边的风暴，比我自己更加安全和温暖我宁愿有共度难关，在外不是很容易我宁愿谁拥有我的心我宁愿谁拥有我的心我宁愿谁拥有我的心 whoooo。。。。。

One Of Us They passed me by, all of those great romances You were, I felt, robbing me of my rightful chances My picture clear, everything seemed so easy And so I dealt you the blow One of us had to go Now it's different, I want you to know One of us is crying One of us is lying In her lonely bed Staring at the ceiling Wishing she was somewhere else instead One of us is lonely One of us is only Waiting for a call Sorry for herself, feeling stupid feeling small Wishing she had never left at all I saw myself as a concealed attraction I felt you kept me away from the heat and the action Just like a child, stubborn and misconceiving That's how I started the show One of us had to go Now I've changed and I want you to know One of us is crying One of us is lying In her lonely bed Staring at the ceiling Wishing she was somewhere else instead One of us is lonely One of us is only Waiting for a call Sorry for herself, feeling stupid feeling small Wishing she had never left at all Never left at all Staring at the ceiling Wishing she was somewhere else instead One of us is lonely One of us is only Waiting for a call

我们其中之一他们让我通过，所有那些重大的浪漫史我感觉，你是剥夺我的公正机会我的画很清除，一切看起来这样容易的所以我给予你打击我们其中一个必须走我想要你知道，现在已经不同了我们其中一个在哭泣我们其中一个在说谎在她孤独的床凝视天花板希望她倒是在别的地方我们其中一个是孤独的我们其中一个只是等侯一个电话对自己感到遗憾，觉得愚蠢觉得渺小希望她没有完全离去我把我自己视作一个被隐藏的吸引我觉得你离开热度和行动的我就像一个孩子一样，顽固和误解那就是如何我开始展览会我们其中一个必须去现在我改变了想法，我想要你知道我们其中一个在哭泣我们其中一个在说谎在她的孤独的床凝视天花板希望她倒是在别的地方我们其中一个是孤独的我们其中一个只是等侯一个电话对自己感到遗憾，觉得愚蠢觉得渺小希望她没有完全离去了没有完全离去凝视天花板希望她倒是在别的地方我们其中一个是孤独的我们其中一个只是等侯一个电话

Say 「good bye」差点不加思索的脱口而出如果你没有溜走我并不想失去你 my on mind 我是如此的爱著你呀所有的一切皆是liaison在心底深处 I need you baby 嘶吼著 every night 虽然疑问折磨著我还是能听见 Love forever and only one 你的声音说著 just next stage resume and "Revive"曾混乱不堪的思考回路慢慢的将它解开你的声音说著 Don't stop 明明泪水以热泪盈眶 Say 「good bye」竟不加思索的脱口而出如果你没有溜走我并不想失去你 my on mind 我是如此的爱著你呀某处faraway Do you mind if I open the door 嘶吼著 every night 以及挑战不安的心我还是能听见Love forever and only one 你的声音说著 just next stage resume and "Revive"所有的一切皆是liaison在心底深处 I need you baby 嘶吼著 every night 虽然疑问折磨著我还是能听见 Love forever and only one 你的声音说著 just next stage resume and "Revive" Tonight I Feel Close To You Close my eyes and feel your mind Time has passed I walked like a shadow Never knew What I am going through You touch my heart and take my breath away Wispier on the wind so softly Let the bright stars fill out dreams with love Reach for your hand and you show me the way Tonight, I feel close to you You open my door and light the sky above When I need a friend, you are there right by my side I wish we could stay as one (I wish we could stay forever as one) All the tears that haunt my past You promised It'll be better tomorrow play that song You and I listened to And let it gently ease our pain Tender rain drops from the blue sky Flowers blooming, life is so divine like sunlight on a stream (you're holding my key) You show the world to me Tonight, I feel close to you You open my door and light the sky above When I need a freand, you are there right by my side I wish we could stay as one So much love in this beautiful world Search for the brightest star in the sky You will find the meaning of love Don't be afraid (Don't be afraid) Just be yourself We need this love...

Time after time 如果上天让我们再次相见我决不会再松开你的手在这个宣告春去的佛之花殿朦胧的花朵一瓣飘零记忆中的歌缓缓苏醒至今在胸中温柔回荡 time after time 和你的相遇是奇迹在那微风扑面的城市轻轻的牵起手走过长长的坡道至今无法忘记的约定在风中传来你的声音遥远的记忆冰般澄澈许下了誓言无惧伤害总会有一天我们在此笑颜重逢在这粉红的季节 time after time 独自在飞花烂漫的城市就算落花凋零无法挽回也在这不变的景色中如同昔日我在泪光中守侯着你轻舞飞扬的花瓣安抚着水面愈想珍惜就愈想你人们都说自己是孤独的却都不能停止寻找依托结果只找到了脆弱的虚幻 time after time 若能在初红的街上与你重逢就不再需要承诺比任何人都容易受伤的你这次我一定永远陪伴你身边 Puzzle 今晚果然也还是一个人走出房间一个人看电视没有值得自己笑的地方不是谁的错已经没有什么了，以无所谓的面容转移对你的视线了分手了潜入谷底，还是等待对方的电话相互把名字写到信箱里心系在一起无论如何也消失不掉曾经我们总是肩并肩坚强的活着即使心走不到一起成了没有结束的谜团理所当然总是在我身边但是就到此为止就好对于我不足的地方，你再想寻找一个伴侣这样的谜团今夜果然还是一个人走出房门半夜2点多收到你的的电话信号只是留言的嘟嘟声言叶选ぶ马上切断给你留言虽然想一个人继续下去，但是一个人的日子已经厌倦已经习惯了2人的生活为什么无话可说，自己为了什么而活着？

June 28. Having been somewhat refresh'd with the Sleep I had had, and the Fit being entirely off, I got up; and tho' the Fright and Terror of my Dream was very great, yet I consider'd, that the Fit of the Ague wou'd return again the next Day, and now was my Time to get something to refresh and support my self when I should be ill; and the first Thing I did, I fill'd a large square Case Bottle with Water, and set it upon my Table, in Reach of my Bed; and to take off the chill or aguish Disposition of the Water, I put about a Quarter of a Pint of Rum into it, and mix'd them together; then I got me a Piece of the Goat's Flesh, and broil'd it on the Coals, but could eat very little; I walk'd about, but was very weak, and withal very sad and heavy-hearted in the Sense of my miserable Condition; dreading the Return of my Distemper the next Day; at Night I made my Supper of three of the Turtle's Eggs, which I roasted in the Ashes, and eat, as we call it, in the Shell; and this was the first Bit of Meat I had ever ask'd God's Blessing to, even as I cou'd remember, in my whole Life.

这些我在故事一开始就提到了。父亲说，我如果执意采取这种愚蠢的行动，那么，上帝一定不会保佑我。当我将来呼援无门时，我会后悔自己没有听从他的忠告。这时，我大声说，现在，父亲的话果然应验了：上帝已经惩罚了我，谁也不能来救我，谁也不能来听我的呼救了。我拒绝了上天的好意，上天原本对我十分慈悲，把我安排在一个优裕的生活环境中，让我幸福舒适地过日子。可是，我自己却身在福中不知福，又不听父母的话来认识这种福份。我使父母为我的愚蠢行为而痛心，而现在，我自己也为我的愚蠢行为所带来的后果而痛心。本来，父母可以帮助我成家立业，过上舒适的生活；然而，我却拒绝了他们的帮助。现在，我不得不在艰难困苦中挣扎，困难之大，连大自然本身都难以忍受。而且，我孤独无援，没有人安慰我，也没有人照应我，也没有人忠告我。想到这里，我又大喊大叫：&上帝啊，救救我吧！我已走投无路了啊！&多少年来，我第一次发出了祈祷，如果这也可算是祈祷的话。现在，让我重新回到日记上来吧。

How when we are in a Doubt or Hesitation, whether to go this Way, or that Way, a secret Hint shall direct us this Way, when we intended to go that Way; nay, when Sense, our own Inclination, and perhaps Business has call'd to go the other Way, yet a strange Impression upon the Mind, from we know not what Springs, and by we know not what Power, shall over-rule us to go this Way; and it shall afterwards appear, that had we gone that Way which we should have gone, and even to our Imagination ought to have gone, we should have been ruin'd and lost: Upon these, and many like Reflections, I afterwards made it a certain Rule with me, That whenever I found those secret Hints, or pressings of my Mind, to doing, or not doing any Thing that presented; or to going this Way, or that Way, I never fail'd to obey the secret Dictate; though I knew no other Reason for it, than that such a Pressure, or such a Hint hung upon my Mind: I could give many Examples of the Success of this Conduct in the Course of my Life; but more especially in the latter Part of my inhabiting this unhappy Island; besides many Occasions which it is very likely I might have taken Notice of, if I had seen with the same Eyes then, that I saw with now: But 'tis never too late to be wise; and I cannot but advise all considering Men, whose Lives are attended with such extraordinary Incidents as mine, or even though not so extraordinary, not to slight such secret Intimations of Providence, let them come from what invisible Intelligence they will, that' I shall not discuss, and perhaps cannot account for; but certainly they are a Proof of the Converse of Spirits, and the secret Communication between those embody'd, and those unembody'd; and such a Proof as can never be withstood: Of which I shall have Occasion to give some very remarkable Instances, in the Remainder of my solitary Residence in this dismal Place.

有时，我们会陷入无所适从的境地，踌躇不定不知道该走哪条路才好。这时候，内心常常会出现一种暗示，指示我们走这条路，虽然我们原来想走的是那条路。不仅如此，有时我们的感觉、愿望、或我们的任务明明要我们走那条路，可是心里忽然灵机一动，要我们走这条路；这种灵机也不知道是从哪里来的，也不知道出自什么影响，可就是压倒了原来的一切感觉和愿望，使我们走这条路。结果，后来的事实证明，如果我们当初走了我们自己想走的路，或者走了我们心目中认为应该走的路，我们则早已陷于万劫不复的境地。反复思索之后，我自己定下了一条规矩：每当自己心里出现这种神秘的暗示或冲动，指示我应做什么或不应做什么，我就坚决服从这种神秘的指示，尽管我不知道为什么该这么做或该这么走，我知道的只是心里的这种暗示或冲动。在我一生中，可以找出许许多多这样的例子，由于我遵循了这种暗示或冲动而获得了成功，尤其是我流落到这个倒霉的荒岛上以后的生活，更证明了这一点。此外还有许多例子。当时我若能用现在的眼光去看待，是一定会意识到的。但是，世上有许多道理，只要有一天能大彻大悟，就不算太晚。我奉劝那些三思而后行的人，如果在他们的生活里，也像我一样充满了种种出乎寻常的变故，或者即使没有什么出乎寻常的变故，都千万不要忽视这种上天的启示，不管这种启示是什么看不见的神明发出的。关于这一点，我不准备在这里讨论，也无法加以阐明。但这种启示至少可以证明，精神与精神之间是可以交往的，有形的事物和无形的事物之间是有神秘的沟通的。而且，这种证明是永远无法推翻的。关于这一点，我将用我后半生的孤寂生活中一些很重要的例子加以证明。

Of course, I am very loving beauty.I think everyone has the right toshowing-offbut showing-off need to have measurable standards, the mostsimple in our daily. each person has the capital and chips in showing-off,because we have to learn to appreciate ourselves, your wearing will bring

我自己也很臭美，我觉得每个人都有臭美的权利，只是臭美需要一个衡量的标准，最简单的在我们日常中，每个人都有臭美的资本和筹码，因为我们要学会欣赏自己，你自己的穿着会给你带来一天的心情，我一直认为给自己整理一下服装，给自己整理一下心情。

On closer examination, though, this is not a vote for multilateralism but just the opposite.

仔细审视后我们发现，这并非是对多边主义投出的赞成票，而是恰好相反。

Uncovering their weak spots, so I can defeat them.

揭露出他们的弱点，这样我就可以打败他们了。