Richard Divine made up his mind to take the last few steps 理查德·神州打定主意把最后几个步骤

to the bathroom door from his bedroom floor and to lock himself in. 从他的卧室地板上洗手间的门，锁定自己的研究。

Steady young hands, meticulous plans, 稳定的年轻的手，细致的计划，

disposable razors and a blisterpack filled with strong sleeping pills, 一次性剃须刀，充满了强烈的安眠药à blisterpack ，

and a bath of hot water. 而热水洗澡。

He carefully wrote a funerary note 他仔细地写了一记陪葬

on his best writing paper to set out the facts, 对他最好的书写纸，列明事实，

and sealed it with wax, and left it in the kitchen. 并密封其与蜡，和在厨房离开它。

He left it out so his parents would know what there was waiting for them: 他离开了出来，所以他的父母就知道那里等着他们：

pale cold skin and blood seeping in to the landing carpet. 苍白冰冷的皮肤和血液渗入到着陆的地毯。

He said he’s not for sale, said that he felt hounded, 他说，他不卖，他说，他觉得追捕，

crowded and surrounded by this life he didn’t choose. 拥挤和这辈子他没有选择包围。

But everybody plays this game on a daily basis. 但大家都玩这个游戏每天。

They’re not heroes, they’re survivors, 他们不是英雄，他们是幸存者，

and it’s not Shakespearian if they lose. 而且，如果他们失去的不是莎士比亚。

So do what you want, do what the voices tell you, 所以，你想要做什么，做什么的声音告诉你，

but don’t ever say that we didn’t warn you. 但千万不要说我们没提醒你。

He said he’s not for sale, but he bought into his failure. 他说，他不卖，但他买了他的失败。

He’s telling tales that hammer nails right into open palms. 他讲故事的锤子钉子右转入开放的手掌。

A martyr in reverse, he’s best at being worst, 相反烈士，他最擅长的是最差的，

the rest of us are cursed but we keep calm and we carry on. 我们其余的人都大骂，但我们保持冷静，我们继续。

So Richard, here it is: none of us are blameless, huddled here like strangers, 因此，理查德，那就是：我们都不是无辜的，蜷缩在这里就像陌生人，

shameless in our lists of all the changes we say we need. 无耻的在我们所有的变化列表，我们说，我们需要的。

But I think that you knew that, 但我认为你知道的是，

you can’t pretend it’s news that when you cut yourself you’ll bleed. 你不能假装它的新闻，当你砍自己，你会流血。