It started as a child 它开始作为一个孩子

when I first sought to flirt with fate 当我第一次试图挑逗命运

I’d lay next to the tracks with arms outstretched across the rails 我躺在铁轨旁横跨铁轨张开双臂

daydreaming fantasizing of sparks and screeching brakes 火花和刺耳的刹车幻想的白日梦

the plumes of bright red gushing iridescent in the sun 鲜红喷薄闪光在阳光的羽毛

   

adopt a life of struggle 采取斗争的生活

one down three more to go 一跌3多了去了

desire: amputation 愿望：截肢

leave me writhing in the limbless throes 离开我扭动了截肢阵痛

   

it is deficiency I crave 这是缺乏我渴望

I want so to be helpless 我想这样是无奈

to inferiority a slave 自卑的奴隶

a clump of breathing flesh 呼吸肉丛

free from extremity 无肢

now replete with nothing left 现在充斥着所剩无几

   

disassemble me 我拆机

limb from limb oh what a treat 从肢体哦，什么是治疗四肢

no more feeling incomplete nor encumbered by this lie 没有更多的感觉，不完整的，也没有被这种谎话拖累

my prayer is for calamity 我的祷告是灾难

merciful blades to sever me 仁慈的刀片割断了我

crippling 瘫痪

detruncating detruncating

immobile by design 动设计

   

majestic ancient titan 雄伟的古代泰坦

swims proudly in its tank 游泳自豪地在其坦克

I wish to slake its hunger 我想平息它的饥饿感

flailing my legs as bait 挥舞着我的腿为诱饵

   

“I finally feel complete. I am now whole.” “我终于感受到完整。我现在的整体。 “

   

superfluous gesture 多余的手势

an unnecessary art 不必要的艺术

sacrificial offering 祭祀

unto the gilded saw 直到镀金锯

rid me of my shame 摆脱我的耻辱我

of what I’ve overachieved 什么我已经超额完成

my envy is the handicapped 我羡慕的是残疾人

lord I beg of you I plead 主啊，我求求你，我恳求

I plead 我恳求

   

wheelchairs prosthetics crutches 假肢轮椅拐杖

all stimulus to me 所有激励我

my love beyond mere fetish 我的爱超越了单纯的迷信

call it disabling 把它禁用

I’d waltz upon a landmine 我会跳华尔兹在地雷

feed digits to machines 进位机器

phantom limb masturbation 幻肢自慰

the only way 的唯一方式

   

dissemble me 掩饰我

limb from limb oh what a treat 从肢体哦，什么是治疗四肢

no more feeling incomplete nor encumbered by this lie 没有更多的感觉，不完整的，也没有被这种谎话拖累

my prayer is for calamity 我的祷告是灾难

merciful blades to sever me 仁慈的刀片割断了我

crippling 瘫痪

detruncating detruncating

immobile by design 动设计

   

disassemble me 我拆机

piece by piece a loving feat 一片片爱的壮举

body image incomplete corrected by a knife 身体形象不完全由刀纠正

my hope is for catastrophe 我的希望是灾难

a gangrenous limbdectomy 坏疽性limbdectomy

dismantling 拆解

dismembering 肢解

cut down to perfect size 砍倒完美的尺寸