Disgust

It's not just my imagination that I got a gun to my head. Cause I can feel the cold metal and I can smell the gun powder. I know they got their sights on me and its not just paranoia that makes me think this way. I know they got their plan for me. I know they got a grave for me. They want me to admit defeat. They want me to show my fear they know their system's going to break me. It's crushed countless before me. 这不只是我的想象，我有枪我的头。因为我能感觉到冰冷的金属，我能闻到火药枪。我知道他们得到了他们的目光投向了我，它不只是妄想，这让我觉得这种方式。我知道他们有他们的计划对我来说。我知道他们有一个严重的我。他们要我承认失败。他们要我证明我的担心，他们知道自己的系统要打破我的。它粉碎了我面前无数。

I stand here and try to look out into the dark vastness that is my future. Unfortunately I can't see shit. There are clouds and there seems to be layers to the sky. It's all just too unknown. I waste time wanting to know what will happen. How will it end. But I never want to reach that day when I no longer have a need for that curiosity. I don't want to know the end to this "movie". 我站在这里，并试图寻找出到浩瀚的黑暗是我的未来。不幸的是，我看不到狗屎。有云似乎有层层向天空。这一切都太清楚。我浪费时间想知道会发生什么。它将如何结束。但我从来没有想达到的那一天，当我不再需要好奇心。我不想知道到底这个“电影” 。

Shouldn't I be living yet? Shouldn't I know where I'm headed by now I have millions of dreams and things I want to do with this life. But I barely have time to do the little I do now. It's not satisfaction I get relaxing at the end of the day. It's escape from the stress. Disgust that I'm already in bed waiting to go to sleep again. Wasn't I just heere? Didn't this just happen? I can't say I know what will happen tomorrow. The higher meaning that I'm looking for did not show itself today. 我不应该得到的生活吗？我不应该知道我为首，现在我有几百万我想要做这辈子的梦想和事情。但我几乎没有时间做的小我现在做的。这不是满意我得到在一天结束的时候放松。它是由应力逃脱。厌恶了，我已经在床上等着再次进入睡眠状态。是不是我刚才heere ？没有这个天上掉下来？我不能说我知道明天会发生什么。在更高的意义，我正在寻找没有表现出自己今天。