At times I’ve shouted out unprovoked, at the world and you, 有时，我喊出了无端的，这个世界和你，

Just to see if the people around me react. 只是为了看看我身边的人的反应。

Sometimes I think they’re all acting, 有时候，我觉得他们都在演戏，

At times I’m scared that I’m acting too. Like, 有时我很害怕，我演戏了。喜欢，

My movements or stage directions? 我的动作或舞台方向？

Was that a change in topic or a beat in a scene? 是，在话题的变化或者在一个场景拍？

Have I been taking my emotional cues from a script I wrote at sixteen? 我已经把我的感情线索，从一个脚本，我写在16 ？

   

Maybe I just think about it all so much 也许我只是想到这一切这么多

That that the fear stays close to all the ghosts I’ve touched. 这是恐惧保持接近所有我碰到了鬼。

Makes me question 让我质疑

Was it love or just lust? 是爱还是只是好色？

Caked in blood or old rust? 在血液或老生锈结块？

I don’t know. 我不知道。

   

Don’t we remember all the moments we remember the best 我们不记得所有的时刻我们记得最好

Framed in poems and in pictures, sang aloud in refrains? 镶在诗歌和图片，在叠句唱大声？

Does this cycle of pain and disdain for the past 是否疼痛和不屑这个周期过去

Not work exactly the same? 不工作完全一样？

   

Maybe it’s just as much about what comes our way as it is how we react. 也许这只是尽可能多的关于什么来我们的方式，因为它是我们如何应对。

Just as much about the things that we’ve still got as it is about the things we lack. 正如很多有关我们还有，因为它是我们缺少的东西的事。

I know, we won’t always keep around all we feel we need- 我知道，我们不会永远保持周围的一切，我们觉得我们需要 -

some are fading in frames, some were born to leave- 一些正在消失的框架，有些人天生无遗下─

But if we’re still here, and we still breathe, 但是，如果我们还在这里，我们仍然呼吸，

At least we’ve still got time to figure it out, 至少我们还有时间去弄明白，

To know what to do, 要知道做什么，

To know how to feel, 要知道如何去感受，

Know the things that I’ve been making up inside my head, 要知道，我已经做了我的脑袋里面的东西，

And to know what’s real. 要知道什么是真实的。

I want to believe that the way I am is just the way it goes. 我要相信我的方式就是不言而喻的方式。

For the things that came, not the things I chose 对于附带的东西，不是我选的东西

to come. 来。

I want to know if I had any control. 我想知道我是否有任何控制权。

I want to know if it’d comfort me. 我想知道，如果它会安慰我。

   

And if my heart just stops, pack my memories in it- 如果我的心脏刚刚停止，收拾我的记忆中它 -

I want to know all the love I’ve got. 我想知道我的一切的爱。

And if my heart just stops, keep me alive for a minute- 如果我的心脏刚刚停止，让我活了分 -

I want to know if a curtain drops. 我想知道，如果窗帘下降。