I promised Colin I’d keep writing, and 我答应科林我会继续写作，并

That’s the only promise I’ve kept, but 这是我已经把唯一的希望，但

I have no regrets. Like, 我没有遗憾。喜欢，

Your empty mailbox? 您的空白邮箱？

It doesn’t bother me. 它不打扰我。

Not at all. 一点也不。

   

And I promised you I’d come visit soon. 我答应你，我会来参观很快。

Guess I should’ve made the trip, but 想我应该所做的行程，但

Money’s tight as rope and time too. And Money的紧绳和时间了。和

You know how it goes better than anyone. 你知道如何去比任何人都好。

There isn’t ever much of anything we need or 没有任何东西需要我们永远不会太大或

Think we do. 觉得我们做的。

So I don’t feel bad. 所以，我不心疼。

I don’t feel bad. 我不心疼。

   

And somewhere you cut me out. 在某处你砍我。

Fall in love to rinse your mouth, 爱上漱口，

But it doesn’t bother me at all. 不过，这并不影响我。

   

I promised Colin I’d take off to you soon, on 我答应科林我会脱掉你不久，就

An old deck in Louisville, KY. 一个古老的甲板肯塔基州路易斯维尔。

Four stories up, Six AM and Ten deep 四个故事了，六上午十深

While they we’re sleeping, and I said, 虽然他们我们正在睡觉，和我说，

“Keep me in check, friend.” And he tried. “把我的支票，朋友。 ”他尽力了。

But I couldn’t be. 但我不能。

   

And that small window closed, and I 那小窗口关闭，我

Never really kept writing either, just 从来没有真正保持写作要么，就

Stared downward at the page most times or 在页面向下凝视着最次

Thought about it real hard. 想过这个问题真正的努力。

And there must be something missing in me 而且必须在我缺少的东西

That she’s there and I’m still here because 她的存在，我还在这里，因为

That’s messed up. 这是搞砸了。

But I don’t feel bad about it. 但我并不感到很内疚。

   

And somewhere you cut me out. 在某处你砍我。

Fall in love to rinse your mouth, 爱上漱口，

But it doesn’t bother me at all. 不过，这并不影响我。

 

I have tried hard to stay hopeful in the moments 我试图努力留下希望的时刻

They cut ropes to set you free. 他们切断绳索让你自由。

I have always tried to point the finger elsewhere. 我一直试图在其他地方将矛头指向。

This time it points to me. 这一次，它指向我。

   

But it doesn’t bother me at all. 不过，这并不影响我。

   

Each chance to lock arms, to lie long in locked eyes 每一个机会锁定武器，趴在长目光锁定

And I failed to let go, to cut ties with my life. 我没有放手，切断与我的生活的关系。

But I’m torn, and reborn, see I died when you left. 但我撕裂，脱胎换骨，看我当你离开死亡。

But each word since that day was your name from my chest. 但是，从那天起，每个字是从我的胸部你的名字。

   

I am afraid. 恐怕。

But it doesn’t bother me at all. 不过，这并不影响我。