To think of my task is chilling. 想想我的任务是让人不寒而栗。

To know I was carefully building the mask I was wearing for two years, swearing I'd tear it off. 要知道我是精心打造我穿了两年的面具，发誓我会撕开。

I've sat in the dark explaining to myself that I'm straining too hard for feelings I ought to find easily. 我坐在黑暗中解释到自己，我使劲太硬的感觉我应该很容易找到。

Called myself Jezebel. 叫我耶洗别。

I don't believe. 我不相信。

   

Before I say that the vows we made weigh like a stone in my heart. 之前我说的誓言，我们做出权衡就像我的心脏石。

Family is family, don't let this tear us apart. 家庭是家庭，不要让这把我们分开。

   

You lie there, an innocent baby. 你躺在那里，一个无辜的婴儿。

I feel like the thief who is raiding your home, entering and breaking and taking in every room. 我觉得谁是袭击你的家，进入和破坏，并采取在每间客房的小偷。

I know your feelings are tender and that inside you the embers still glow. 我知道你的感觉是温柔和你内心的余烬还在发光。

But I'm a shadow, I'm only a bed of blackened coal. 但我是一个影子，我只有一张床熏黑煤。

Call myself Jezebel for wanting to leave. 称自己为耶洗别想要离开。

   

I'm not saying I'm replacing love for some other word to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you. 我不是说我爱取代一些其他的词来形容，那我必然对你的神圣纽带。

I'm just saying we've mistaken one for thousands of words. 我只是说，我们已经错了一个为数千字。

And for that mistake, I've caused you such pain that I damn that word. 而对于这个错误，我使你们，我该死的这个词的痛苦。

I've no more ways to hide that I'm a desolate and empty, hollow place inside. 我没有多想办法隐藏我里面一片荒凉而空，中空的地方。

   

I'm not saying I'm replacing love for some other word to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you. 我不是说我爱取代一些其他的词来形容，那我必然对你的神圣纽带。

I'm not saying love's a plaything. 我不是说爱情是一个玩物。

No, it's a powerful word, inspired by strong desire to bind myself to you. 不，它是一个功能强大的文字，灵感来自强烈的愿望，结合一下自己。

How I wish that we never had tried to be man and his wife, to weave our lives into a blindfold over both our eyes. 我多么希望，我们从来没有试图成为男人和他的妻子，编织我们的生活变成一个眼罩了我们两个的眼睛。